Ah, priviledge and perspective. National service. A commitment to human rights, equality, justice for all. It was an idea I still believe in, but I seem to be among the minority opinion.
I’m only paid because I served faithfully for 22 years with a TS/SCI clearance and didn’t take home copies of to store in my bathroom or post in AIM or iRC to my gaming buddies. Now that the sensitivity of information lines are irreprably broken, I genuinely feel for anyone in similar situations.
I mean, I’m right here, and going to suffer right along with everyone else … but at least I’ve seen it coming. I’ve tried to talk to people, tried to get them to pay attention.
But an apology tour is all it takes. Even Mitch McConnell, the man who allowed an insurrectionist to escape TWO impeachments. I don’t mean to suggest it was ahis singular achievement, of course. It took a whole heap of folks to just … ignore their constitutional responsibilities.
See, that’s the problem. Whether it’s eating from the tree of knowledge, or deciding where to spend the Nations tax dollars … they all want and desire and enjoy the power and influence it gives them, while wanting nothing to do with any of the responsibility that accompanies such influence.
I think; therefore I am. Are you? Do you? Do you recognize your own self-worth? Are you spending your energy and resources in pursuit of your own goals, or someone else’s?
I sent an old friend another email. I don’t even know what I hope for anymore. I just try to face each day in the best spirit I can. I continue to tell the universe I remain ready to serve the greater good. To do as little harm as I can, even as I recognize sustenance alone drives others’ deaths.
Perhaps my critical tongue will shrink my income, and I’ll waste away to nothing. An old tree in a dying forest. Allegory. Foreshadenfreude. Tradition. Bias. I steel myself to witness the collapse of the status quo. What will emerge beyond the inevitable panic and mayhem.
I chose my path in large part because I figured that at least if I wasn’t secure then circumstances would be that I would not be alone. But now that it seems like that’s exactly what’s come, well, it’s a certain surreal kind of feeling. I mean, especially with so many parrallels … but we probably all tend to observe the “parrallels” in our own life experiences that seem to have led up to this point … right? And all of our circles and spheres are restricted in many ways simply due to our individual paths.
I guess Elon and his folks have gained direct access to Treasury computers. I just … can’t begin to tell you how problematic that is. Unless a lot of people wake up very quickly and make their displeasure known (of course, people would have to understand why any of this is a problem and why they *should* care, but anyway … yeah) … Tarriffs that we’re all going to start stuffing 25% taxes (I mean tarriffs) into the treasury at the same time it’s just … taken over by the “law and order” folks? ROFL
We may already be in a time when it’s straight-up impossible to verify truth from fiction. Ain’t that awesome? In the span of my individual lifetime we’ve gone from video evidence being the most “objective” evidence available to reliably show the truth of events to literally being unable to trust anything you see because it could be manipulated or straight-up generated artificially.
Happy Monday! It’s only the second month of 2025.
Lander Van Mk1 